A Heart To Heart

How bad do you let things become before you give them to God?

Since the last time I wrote on this blog, I have been under immense spiritual attack. About three weeks ago I got into a car accident while on my way home from work. A truck from the city of Fort Lauderdale drifted into my lane and hit my car.  When the police officer came she insisted that there was absolutely no way the driver could have drifted into my lane since the driver works for the city of Fort Lauderdale. Imagine that. I was infuriated, but also taken back by the lack of professionalism. Before I could even explain what took place, the officer had already chosen whose side she was on and it was not mine.  It went downhill from there. I was told by the officer that it's been ruled "no one" is at fault. The next day I went to work feeling ill and I ended up having to leave early. Life was taking its toll on me. Oh! Did I mention while this was happening I was moving into a new home? One thing after the other I kept pushing. A few days later my insurance called first thing in the morning to inform me they were not responsible for fixing the damages on my car because the damages were less than the deductible. At this point, I could no longer pretend I had it all together I broke down crying. Snot faced and all in my room before the Lord. I was walking around pretending I could carry the weight, that the burden wasn’t too heavy, but in reality, I was overwhelmed. I heard God call me to rest. He told me to let it out and express how I felt to Him because through it all He is with me. “Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest - Matthew 11:28 NIV. 

Right there in my room, on my prayer mat, I had a heart to heart with God. I released my burden. I released my inward thoughts, concerns, and questions. I know He heard them all. God can translate our tears. He sees when we are hurting and He is waiting with open arms for us to run into. I believe some of us are anxious, fearful, doubtful, and depressed because we refuse to go to our papa our Abba father and flow freely in His presence. He wants to hear our authentic broken prayers. He wants to know about our day at work or school or even at the grocery store. He wants us to trust Him with every area of our lives. 

I was liberated by the time I let it all out. Free to laugh, free to be in peace, free to worship, free to continue to run this race. 

What about you? Have you released your deepest concerns, thoughts, and desires to God or are you holding back? I plead with you today to be free before your maker and know He is with you. He will never leave nor forsake you -Deuteronomy 31:6 

“I sought the LORD, and He answered me: He delivered me from all my fears - Psalm 34:4 

Be Free. 

Be Encouraged 

As always praying for you all. 

Love Monica,