Faith for more
There comes a time in every person’s life when they muster up the courage to stop lying to themselves; to face the truth (God’s word) and their issues. To admit they have stood in their way, and that they are their own enemy because the person they were, is fighting against the person their becoming. This war has caused friction, tension, destructible chemistry, and unnecessary warfare. However, it has an ending… and it happens when that person says, “enough is enough and I’ve had enough.”
Right now, that person is me.
I’ve accomplished many things and have witnessed the supernatural power of God in my life, but every time God tells me to do something crazy (beyond my understanding) and brings me into a season of transition, I return to what’s comfortable, easy, and familiar. I believe that it’s not because I always want to but because the battle to cross over into destiny comes with a burden that is not always easy to carry.
It looks like surrendering what I want for what God knows I need. Like, learning to defy the survival mindset and mechanism I’ve practiced since childhood. Like, learning to embrace differences about myself I used to reject and officially close doors to people that I once held open for the sake of people-pleasing.
In some ways, I’ve practiced these things and have been overcoming them step by step, however, I know that it’s time to officially destroy every demonic altar so that they cannot be raised up again in my life or my bloodline. In the Old Testament, in 1 Kings, after David and Solomon’s death, we are introduced to many kings who worshipped demonic altars and were doubleminded in serving God. Yet there were still a few who repented, but the problem was that they did not completely destroy the high places. This tells me they were lethargic and too comfortable to radically go against their normal. Example: “Asa did what was right in the eyes of the Lord, as his father David had done. He expelled the male shrine prostitutes from the land and got rid of all the idols his ancestors had made. He even deposed his grandmother Maakah from her position as queen mother, because she had made a repulsive image for the worship of Asherah. Asa cut it down and burned it in the Kidron Valley. Although he did not remove the high places, Asa’s heart was fully committed to the Lord all his life. He brought into the temple of the Lord the silver and gold and the articles that he and his father had dedicated” 1 Kings 15:11-15 (NIV).
Unfortunately, Asa was not hungry enough to be completely free. That is the trick of the enemy, to have us look around and say, “It doesn’t take all of that” or “God knows my heart.” Those are excuses created by fear because to truly level up means to selflessly live for Jesus. It’s to make peace with the realization that our lives were never and are not our own. That’s a scary commitment, but one that can be achieved.
I’ve made up my mind to chase God into the unknown and to do what has never been done before. I thought I did already, however, I was operating in a different (comfortable) mindset. I was okay with doing what was expected of me from the world and from those who have been familiar with the old Monica. Now, I’m going to be even more undignified and bold for Jesus. “I will become even more undignified than this, and I will be humiliated in my own eyes” 2 Samuel 6:22 (NIV). I’m tapping into what was always meant for me, but what I thought was too hard to reach.
I know now that my yes is enough for Jesus to teach me how to fight and win battles I’ve never seen done before. It’s possible, all things are possible with Him.
If you’ve been on the verge of deciding to let go of what you used to know and love for what God has for you know, that choosing Him is the better choice. It will cost you some things, but the reward is worth it.
I’m praying for you.
Be Encouraged,
Love Monica
