Becoming Undone, While treading towards purpose
I’m not ready,
I don’t feel ready,
But...
What about…
Am I doing this right…God?
I’ve made too many mistakes to try again…
My past is haunting me…
My flesh talks back to me…
Who am I really?...
God…
“I said go forward”- God Exodus 14:15 (NIV).
Like Moses, I like to express many of my excuses to God in hopes that He would grab a chair and dwell with me in my pity party, but of course, He doesn’t because He sees me as a victor and not a victim. So as He commanded Moses and the Israelites to march forward into their purpose He tells you and me. I’ve come to understand that my excuses come from a place of fear of not becoming who God created me to be, failing the mission, going astray, and my fear of imperfection. When God tells me everything I want to hear about the next step to my healing, deliverance, and breakthrough I feel more prepared to crossover into my next, but when He’s silent about these things and He tells me to just keep going I get frustrated and I want to take a step back. However, I’m reminded of Moses and how God did not allow him to sit and waste time wallowing on his flaws and his mountain of excuses, but that God allowed Him to become undone while he treaded towards his purpose.
During Moses’s first encounter with God in the burning bushes, the Lord says to him, “I have indeed seen the misery of my people in Egypt. I have heard them crying out because of their slave drivers, and I am concerned about their suffering. So I have come down to rescue them from the hand of the Egyptians and to bring them up out of that land into a good and spacious land, a land flowing with milk and honey—the home of the Canaanites, Hittites, Amorites, Perizzites, Hivites and Jebusites. And now the cry of the Israelites has reached me, and I have seen the way the Egyptians are oppressing them. So now, go. I am sending you to Pharaoh to bring my people the Israelites out of Egypt. Exodus 3:7-10 (NIV).
He doesn’t condemn Moses for killing the Egyptian man and for hiding in Midian out of fear, guilt, and shame. He’s forgiven Moses and blotted out His past. At this moment He’s focused on Moses’s future; the Moses who’s about to become one of the greatest leaders and prophets we know. God would rather wait for Moses to go up than to stay stagnant on what was and what could have been. Lives were at stake! Moses was the solution to the Israelites freedom.
We are the solution to this world!
So God has a plan to heal and deliver Moses from His limited mindset, complaining tongue, and excuses while he leads His people. Every encounter that Moses has with God while on their way to the promised land God uses it as an opportunity to speak life into him, to show him His glory, to share his secrets with him, to strengthen and correct him when needed. It was in these in-between moments that the shackles still clinging to Moses’s identity began breaking loose. You see God has a plan to rescue us indefinitely from every stumbling block we have carried into our hearts from childhood until now, but his rescue plan happens while we are moving in faith, not when we’re paralyzed by fear.
Reading Moses’s story through a different lens has given me the courage to become undone while treading towards purpose. I don’t have all the answers today, and I won’t tomorrow either, but God’s grace is sufficient when I’m not put together, but I’m trying. He sees when I am in need of a renewed heart so He says I got you, I’ll fix you up but I need you to keep going because you are the solution I’ve created to someone else’s problem and if you stay here ashamed, fearful, and doubtful then we’ll keep them waiting.
I don’t know what you put down because the enemy or even yourself talked you out of it, but I pray that you come out this way of thinking because you are so needed, so loved and so full of purpose.
This week, do what you’ve been running from and press on as God told you to.
Love you,
Be encouraged.
